Friday, June 1, 2012

Letter from the Editors June


Dear Readers,

As the year draws to a close with the promise of an exciting and swelteringly hot summer, everyone’s thoughts drift off to reflect on the last school year. For some, it was the thrill of a new environment that made this year special. For others, retreats, basketball games and even random but funny moments in the hallways between classes come to mind while pondering the year. However, as we say goodbye to our seniors and begin to prepare for finals, we must take the time to reflect on the writing achievements of the NSHAHS community over the last ten months.
From participating in NaNoWriMo, NsNoWriMo and Poet’s CafĂ© to simply writing a personal poem, North Shore’s talented young minds have outshined themselves. Two novels have been completed (excerpts of which are featured in this month’s issue) while others have been started and countless numbers of contest entries have been recognized for their superior quality and style. The June issue of The Written Voice further showcases the creative talents of NSHAHS students, containing poems and personal stories as well as the successive chapters of several student’s books.
I would like to express my gratitude to Director of the Writing Center Mrs. April Zabinsky for her constant insight and work on the school’s publications as well as essay assignments and personal writing endeavors. Thank you to everyone who contributed to the final issue of 2011-2012’s Written Voice. Enjoy the summer and remember to channel your energy into more creating and writing!

Sincerely,
Anna Hardcastle and Rachelle David
Editors

The Torah Plus Me

The Torah Plus Me
by Rachelle David

I love you.
Perhaps my love is only mental
But it is real
As real as nothing that I ever imagined

When the man came down with you,
I was struck with jealousy,
Which I do know is a sin,
But I could not stop the emotions from flooding in
My skin was crawling with shivers
As I was trying to control my sensations

I wanted to be him
Holding you so closely
  Protecting you 
Never wanting to let go

                                                I wished to hold you like he held you
                                                But my desire was never fulfilled
                                                I was heartbroken
                                                My heart cracked and fell
                                                Abundant as crumbs on a Passover table
                                                But I am still hopeful,
                                                I will never give up,
                                                That one-day we might be closer
                                                Than the North and South poles
                                                Which is how close I feel we are

                                                   I loved you the first time I saw you
                                                  Even though I did not know what you were
                                                     At that time…
                                                  Emotion rushed when I set my eyes upon you
                                                I was slightly light-headed
                                                But not enough to faint
                                                  Because I am stronger than that

                                                  But I have grown to recognize you
                                                 You, and not your many clones
                                                Sometimes it is difficult
                                               And I feel lost without knowing where you are
                                              But I know who you really are
                                            And where you are
                                            So I am still secure
                                            So now I ask:
                                             Do you know me?

                                          If only you could speak
                                            Then you would tell me if I am
                                      Wasting my time
                                         And if I should let devastation set in, or
                                         If you do love me
                                       As much as I love you
                                       And I should banish all my doubts

                                    If only you could hear
                                     Then you would listen to all
                                         My wonderful words,
                                        Let them spread happiness
                                       As they pass through you brain,
                                    And love me because of them
                                      Instead of my physical features
                                   Which you could not see,
                                  Anyway

                                 If only you could kiss
                                Then we would kiss all
                               Through the night
                                And I would adore your lips
                                Smooth as I know they would be
                                 And you could kiss mine
                                    Only because you like being close to me
                              And because you love me
                             For mine are rough and dry

                              But you cannot
                             And I will never know the truth
                            Or maybe I will outgrow this infatuation,
                             Allow my paranoia to skip joyfully into the distance
                        Hopefully I will not cry like a parent
                      Whose last child just left the house
                       But instead like an emotional opera singer
                     Who was too passionate about the play
                        And cried lightly out of zeal.
                     I hope I cry like that, when this unhealthy bond concludes
                   And come to understand
                   That you love me more than I will ever be able to love you

Judgment Can Change the World

 
by Jessica Goldman


  As Mr. Vennero returned our first ninth grade biology test, he asked us to guess who received the highest mark. The classroom still reeked from the awkwardness of our first week of school. Since we knew nothing of each other, everyone assumed that the quiet kid who wore glasses and sat in the front of the room had earned the highest grade. It was a good guess; Jason got the second best mark in the class. But nobody guessed that it was the blond girl in the back row who received the best.
It’s mind boggling how many conclusions we draw about people while knowing absolutely nothing about them. Studies show that in the first eleven seconds that you meet someone, you have already made an average of seven assumptions about them.
The issue of ignorant judgments is one that has been disturbing me for years. I vividly recall fighting with Dylan, the boy who sat in front of me in my sixth grade English class, over a similar controversy.
“How many syllables are stressed in an Iambic Pentameter?” the teacher asked the tall boy who was glaring out the window.
“I don’t know,” the boy responded, “one?”
“ARE YOU RETARDED?” Dylan yelled, “Pentameter like pentagon.”
“Why does that make him retarded?” I asked.
“Because she told us 600 times” was the only response that I could elicit.
I had difficulty with the all too common use of “retarded” as a casual slur. My little brother, Sam, is diagnosed with Mental Retardation and yet has the best memory of anyone I know. After being told only once, he will wish you, your entire family, your bus driver, and your best friend’s dog a happy birthday every year. He could also tell you what day of the week any date will fall this year, last year, five years ago, and exactly what he did that day. So how is the kid who didn’t remember that iambic pentameter has five stressed syllables remotely similar to my little brother?
Years later, and I am still realizing the complexity of false assumptions. This summer I worked for College and Community Fellowship, helping women who were incarcerated to attain an education and turn their lives around. The first thing I noticed when I met my boss was her shoes: gorgeous Louboutin stilettos. The second thing I noticed was her grin which instantly warmed the cool, professional work space. For months I worked under the wing of Letisha. Since she had been engaged in complex policy work, I assumed that Tish had attended a prestigious law school. One day, she walked into the office sporting a new professionally stylish haircut that maintained her edgy Brooklyn attitude, “Nice do,” I commented.
“Thanks,” she laughed, “I told the hairdresser that I spent sixteen years in prison and I promised myself this luxury in my new life.” I was shocked- I had no idea that Letisha was ever in prison. Immediately, I realized that I was guilty of committing the very same mistake that I hate so much, making ignorant assumptions.
As Mr. V handed back my biology test and the class shockingly stared as I gloated my freshman victory, I overheard some boys whispering about me. Apparently, no blonde haired pageant girl could ace an honors bio test. That night I became sick and tired of the bimbo treatment and I stole a bottle of my mom’s black hair dye. As I poured the syrup into my hands, I thought again about what I was doing. All the stereotypes about blondes, the rumors, the vicious judgments- will they really stop with some hair dye? And then I realized. Why should I change myself…when I can change the world instead?

The Wall Part III

 
by Rayna Friedman


“Clay it’s going to work. We’ve got a good man on guard and these people have worked day and night to make sure this route is the best one to take. We’re going to get you over that damn wall Clay, it’s going to happen.”
“It is.”
I looked up from the paper and nodded at Serge. I laughed at myself. All those second thoughts, those doubts, they were ridiculous. Here was I Clay Burnam, getting the chance to do something that no one else had done before, and I was going to write about it, tell it to the Empire. How could I pass something like this up? How could I not want to do it?
“Alright. Now let’s run through this plan a couple of times, get you perfectly comfortable with the idea of this.” Serge said, putting a hand on my back and leading me down the hall of muttering and buzzing to another door.
We entered another massive room, but this one not as narrow as the hallway-like room we had just been in. Something like 15 light bulbs hung from the ceiling ten feet apart going down the entirety of the wall. The light was that fake orange-yellow light that old bulbs glowed. The room was cold, the floor a dull concrete and in the middle, a wall.
“An exact simulation. We’ve got our own piece of Wall right here.” Serge said with a chuckle. I had to say, I liked the serious and rigid Serge better than this one.
“Alright Clay, you’re going to start right here,” he said, pointing to a red X on the floor.
“Run to the wall, scale it, come down and run to the red X on the other side. Okay?”
“Okay”
He laughed again, this time probably at me and my hesitance. As much as I liked Serge, we weren’t friends, not by any means. He was some semi-nut anarchist and I was his revolutionary puppet. I didn’t mind the relationship; it was just not the most comfortable.
“Oh and here.” He threw a small backpack at me. It was a little heavy, it must have been filled with junk they got together.
“To simulate what you’ll be carrying.”
I slung the bag over my shoulders, walked over to the X and got in a runner’s stance.
“When I say three”
I nodded
“One…two…three!”
I sprinted to the wall, grabbed the ladder’s railing and scaled it. I got to the top, climbed as fast as I could down and ran to the X. I was panting and my back was getting wet when I reached my destination.
“Beautiful, three minutes and 18 seconds. Now let’s do it again.”
I went through that simulation five times, running, panting, sweating. We got my time down to 2 minutes and 42 seconds, which gave me what Serge claimed “ample” time to mess up tomorrow night.
“You won’t be coming here tomorrow night. You’ll go to the real red X and don’t get there the straight way. Take these alleyways and side streets,” Serge explained to me as he traced out a route on a paper that had a small portion of the Down and wall on it with a pen. Some of the anarchists were so anti-government they didn’t even use their technology to help them do their work more efficiently. A lot of them insisted on using pens and paper and old computers. Personally I found it incredibly inefficient and I didn’t have a problem with the government. I didn’t believe in all of their conspiracy theories, it just made for interesting listening material.
“Good luck Burnam.” Serge and I shook hands and I turned to leave. On my way out (which was down the long hall of buzzing and murmurs) everyone who saw me wished me luck and gave me a pat on the back or a hand shake. Finally I got myself to the metal door, up the stairs and into the streets of the Down.
After being cooped up in that basement with that stale pumped in oxygen, I took a deep breath in and out, thankful for the smoky air that was filling my lungs. I walked along, upright and feeling proud. I felt that I was finally going to accomplish something that I was supposed to do. This was it. This was going to be the big article, the game changer, I could feel it. My future article could be the foundation for the rebuilding of the Empire. It could help with the population problem, get the smoke cleared, and get the factories spread throughout the country. Anything was possible after this article was published. All this worrying about the Ills was probably unfounded, there never seemed like that many in the public viewings. They just seemed crazed, but that wasn’t news. We’re talking about the Empire; here they can handle a few crazy deformed psychos.
I reached the gate and walked up to the door. The guard turned his head to me and asked for ID. I gave it to the man who held it to his tech pad and with a few clicks and pressing of buttons, opened the door for me and let me back into Uptown. I got into me Elle and drove off to home.
My home. Apartment Building number 58, floor 5, room number 4. I really shouldn’t call it a home because that’s not really what I consider it. It’s really just a place where I sleep and occasionally eat. I spend most of my time either in the Times building or on whichever site I happen to be at, getting information for the upcoming article.
The area in which I spent some time in: bed, drawer, desk, kitchen, bathroom. That was my apartment. Nothing obviously cozy but that was fine by me. In hindsight I didn’t really treat the place with respect; I should have probably kept it in better shape. But I was and am a young man who didn’t plan on marrying and never had guests over.
The floor was covered in clothes. Stacks of books lined the two corners of the wall my bed laid against and papers were everywhere near and on my desk, surrounding my one prized possession, my computer. That was my livelihood; that was where some of the magic happened. That thing came with me to work everyday (when I planned on using it) and was brought home and settled down every night. And in that computer was the chip that had all of my writings on it, old and new. Things that were already published things about to be published, some articles I didn’t want to part with and a few personal writings.
I dropped my bag on the tiny kitchen table, grabbed a meal tablet out of the cupboard and a water bottle and threw the food and drink on my bed. I went over to my computer and placed it on my bed as well, opened the lid and asked it to turn on for me as I took a seat by my food, across from the screen. It turned itself on and the white screen almost blinded me. You’d think I’d be used to that damn light, but it only wears off after I’ve been staring at the screen for a while. I asked the computer to turn on the news, channel 50 and it obeyed as it always does.
On the screen was the President making a speech about the recent issue with the connection. The internet had been a bit faulty the past few hours and it was believed to be some form of anarchism. If I didn’t know better I would have guessed it was Serge and his groupies. But I knew it wasn’t, it was probably some problem of the Internet providers, someone would most likely be fired by the end of today, if they weren’t already. The news show cut to a video of protestors outside the Internet building. The scene cut back to the president who suddenly changed his tone of voice and said the internet was back to normal, everything was fixed. Well, now the majority of the Empire could breathe a sigh of relief and continue their lives as always. I don’t really understand why people get so worked up about these things? The government always ends up fixing these problems in hours, if not minutes.
I bit through the rapper of the meal tab and ate the whole thing in three bites. I wasn’t in the mood for eating anything really. I wanted to write. I closed the president’s speech and opened up a notepad. I took a deep breath in and out, smoothed my hair back with both hands and began.
“April 24, 10:36 pm. I’m sitting here in my cupboard of a room waiting to get over The Wall. Yes that is right, Clay Burnam is finally going to literally get south of the 37’ line. I know it’s been all talk and plans up until now but this is it. This is real.
“I don’t know how things are going to go out there. I could get killed in a few minutes from contact with the Ills. I could get killed by huge mutated animals, I could even end up finding absolutely nothing over The Wall (which would be quite the disappointment but what I am expecting I have to say). But at least I am prepared for anything. I’ve had my share of let downs and this might just be one of them, which would be okay. I would just go on leading my journalist existence of writing more articles and trying to make little differences in this world we live in. Or I could find a vast area of unused land that could change the Empire’s political and economic status. Who knows what will come out of this escapade? Save.”
I closed the notepad. Took out my chip and put it in the brown messenger bag laying on the ground next to my bed. I instructed my computer to turn the television on to some comedy channel and I drank my water as I watched the mostly stupid (but occasional funny) comedy sketches until one o clock that night. I set my alarm for 6 pm. And yes, I was able to sleep that long, I think it came from living a good majority of my life not sleeping, which ultimately made me want to make up for all the lost hours when I could, which was now. And the time couldn’t be more perfect. I needed the sleep because really, who knew what was going to happen tonight?
I woke up 4 minutes before the alarm sounded. I grabbed the computer and pressed the big red button on the screen before it could blast at me for not being up yet. With three minutes to spare, I got to the button. A groan escaped my lips as I swung my legs over the side of my bed. I opened my computer and asked for the news. As I listened about Japan’s newest technological breakthrough and the different ideas of how it would help or hurt us I gave my teeth a good brushing and got into my clothes. 
“And don’t forget; stay at least 50 feet from The Wall. It isn’t safe on the other side.” A woman…the woman said.
I turned the computer to face me as I put my Wall guard’s uniform in my bag to put on once I got to the Down.
A new clip of the Ills was on. There were 10 “people” running up to the cameras on The Wall. They held axes, hatchets and other weapons; and raising them above their heads they ran to The Wall. Shots could be heard as some of them fell while others kept going to The Wall. Three made it and began hacking away at the stone. It took 10 seconds to finally kill the Ills at The Wall. They barely made a dent in the stone, but they managed to look as crazy and mentally incapacitated as we believed them to be. I shuddered for a second not only at the fact that these crazies lived only a few miles away and that I was going to be closer to them than anyone had ever been, but also that the entire Empire had just had to see them being shot to death. And it was quite a violent way to go.
I closed my computer, put it in my desk drawer and in its place took out my new voice logger. The piece of equipment was a “gift” from Serge and the anarchists. I was going to use it to record everything over The Wall. It was lighter and much more compact than my computer so it was perfect for the job. All it needed was my chip to have everything saved into and then it was all systems go from there. I put the silver rimmed screen into my bag and felt around for my chip once again. There it was, right where I had left it last night, sitting deep in the recesses of my bag. I grabbed my ID card, put it in my bag, slung my bag over my shoulder and left my apartment.
I made my way to the Overground stop near my apartment, which was about 2 blocks away, got on the G*7 and rode it a few blocks from the Down gate. I got off at my appointed spot and then walked to the gate. The guards in black were standing there, as usual, their emotionless faces blocked by their black helmets. Nade wasn’t there. I frowned, but thought it was probably for the best. I guess me going to the Down two days in a row would seem somewhat suspicious and well…I was about to do something extremely illegal. Going over The Wall is just about as bad, if not worse than murdering someone in the Empire. But once I came back I knew I could change things. I would bring news that would help the Empire so much that the government wouldn’t even want to hurt me, I’m sure.
I showed one of the guards my ID and within a few seconds, to the Down I went.  I made my way through the many back streets and alleyways that Serge had mapped out for me and stopped off at an evacuated building. Probably some disease had spread there, a very common occurrence in the Down and was most likely on the way to being demolished. I went inside, said hello to make sure no one was in there and when I was satisfied got dressed into my Wall guard’s uniform. I put my clothes in my messenger bag; once again made sure my voice logger and ID card were in there and headed back out. By 7 that night I was sixty feet from The Wall.
That massive stone structure loomed over me. It almost looked like it was going to fall down right on me and crush me there and then before I could even get anything I needed to done. That would be unfortunate, I thought, staring up at the huge wall. I put my hand on the wall of the building behind me and leaned on it. Serge told me I needed to wait for one of his men to initiate the climb. I felt something wet on my fingers and turned to the wall to see what it was. There was a red X about a half a foot wide freshly painted on the building. I laughed out loud at my anarchist “friend.”
“Oh Serge, very symbolic”
“He likes that kind of stuff” a voice said, coming from the nearest alley. I started to walk towards the voice.
“No Mr. Burnam, stay right where you are”
“Okay then…” Well this must have been the initiator.
“I’m going to give our man on The Wall a sign and then you’ll have to start going”
“Sounds like a plan.” I turned back towards The Wall and waited.
“And Serge says, just like last night”
“Yeah, easy for him to say” I said with a laugh. Well it was; he wasn’t the one risking his ass for the truth. He was just sending the sheep to the slaughter so to speak. But of course I had more confidence in this whole situation, so I wasn’t mad at the encouragement.
“And Mr. Burnam”
“Call me Clay”
“Um…Clay?”
“Yeah”
“Good luck. You’re a hero for everyone underground. We all appreciate what you’re doing and are gonna be hoping for you while you’re over there”
“Thanks”
We waited a few minutes until I could hear some muffled noises where my anarchist was hiding behind the building. He must have had a headset set up to the guard on The Wall.
“Ready Mr. Burnam”
“Ready as ever”
“Ok…now”
I ran to The Wall, my heart beating so hard, I could have easily been having a heart attack, I couldn’t tell the difference. But I ran on the uneven street to the ladder, found it, scaled it all the way up and met the guard at the top. He nodded his head in what looked like approval before practically pushing me down the ladder. I got my feet on the rungs and climbed down. About a quarter of my way through the descent, my feet couldn’t find the next rung and I slid down a few feet, my heart beating even faster than before. I thought I was done for, but I pushed my feet against the metal and finally found one rung to balance on. From there, I made my way, smoothly down the ladder, trying to recover from the sudden panic attack, succeeding and got to the ground on the other side.
I ran, holding the strap of my bag, making sure it was secured to me and that nothing would fall out. Of course, in hind sight, I should have probably done that during the whole escape but I wasn’t exactly thinking of my bag while I was running, potentially for my life. I didn’t stop running past the 50 foot mark because I didn’t even know what that was. I was supposed to count to 30 during my run but I forgot in the heat of things and just kept running. But I soon stopped and caught my breath. I looked back at The Wall and knew I was more than 50 feet from it. I was far from the guards, guns and screens of the north. I was south of the 37’ line.
I was over The Wall.


To Be Continued...

Foresight Part III


by Elias Horowitz

                  Those few months for Peter were filled with more excruciating pain than could be suggested by the nonchalant words of Dr. Jenson. Much of the time later blended into an unclear haze of uncontrollable convulsions and the knowledge he was going to die. Yet one event stayed etched in his mind. Melissa walked through the door of the hospital room with a dark look on her face.
                  “I can’t wait for you anymore Peter,” she said. “It’s been over three months already. I’m sorry. I don’t want it to end. I’ve visited you so many times, and I doubt you even remember. I’m sorry.”
                  “What? Melissa?” Peter mumbled. “What do you mean?” He knew perfectly well what she meant. While he was debating with himself whether or not to welcome the end of this relationship with open arms, Melissa spoke again.
                  “This is exactly it. I doubt you remember even one of my visits.”
                  “I remember. I remember all of them,” he countered weakly. While he surely didn’t remember all of them, he knew exactly how many he wanted to remember. He struggled and fought down the urge to let her know just how much of their relationship had been platonic.
                  “I don’t even know if you’re conscious right now. I, just, Peter, I’m sorry. Goodbye.”
                  As she walked out the door for the final time, Peter thought he saw a wisp of red hair whip around the corner.

                  Progressively over the next few months, his condition worsened. Peter lapsed in and out of consciousness, screaming things while passersby glanced for a few moments. Two months after Melissa had ended their relationship, he had another round of convulsions. Except now, instead of merely falling unconscious, he had flashes of colors and images, turning into scenes, almost recognizable, but never quite. Had he thought it would have made a difference, he would have mentioned it to the doctors. He knew what their response would be; he was dying, and that death was coming along, even closer.
                   It was in those rare moments of lucidity when the true pain set in. “I’m going to die, Dr. Halpert. No one will ever know,” he muttered to the psychologist they had assigned him.
                  Dr. Halpert merely nodded, saying the prepackaged words by rote, “You matter… You have a job, a family, they care about you. Now that’s all that really matters.” Peter had some rather interesting daydreams and panicked assertions, followed by unhurried memorized responses by Dr. Halpert, altogether lasting the better part of an hour. Towards the end of their session, a man walked in. While otherwise unimposing with a crisp suit and unimpressive physique, his eyes flitted across the room, from Peter to Dr. Halpert. They were piercing. However nondescript the man seemed, he carried an aura about him, and knew it. With the tone of one who carries authority in any given situation, he growled at Dr. Halpert, “Out. Now.”
                  “Excuse me, I’m with a pa-“
                  “Leave. Don’t you have a patient you could be getting to in the Oncology Wing?”
                  “Wha? Who are yo-”
                  The question had not yet finished forming on the psychologist’s lips when it was halted by a devastating stare from the man. Rolling it over in his head for a minute, the psychologist decided he could ignore a patient just as well in another section of the hospital.
                  Left alone with Peter, the man sat down for before stating matter-of-factly, “Doesn’t listen, that one.”
                  “You have no idea,” came Peter’s swift reply. Grateful though Peter was for the man shooing the psychologist out, thoughts went buzzing through his mind as to who this man might be or what he could want. Trying to form the question in a way that wouldn’t seem as if he were afraid, the man replied before the words left his mouth.
                  “You mean you don’t recognize me, Peter? That’s sort of shocking,” the man replied, leaving Peter with a fearful look on his face as realization dawned. “Well, not that you don’t recognize me. We’ve never met. What’s shocking is you don’t recognize my voice.” The end of the sentence dribbled into Peter’s ears as he went into the convulsions that had become so common for him. He lost consciousness once more, but not in any way similar to the times he had passed out since coming to the hospital.
                  Peter saw the man sitting next to himself, next to an IV that had been set up on the other side of his bed. But not from his own body; he was watching the scene from the top of his hospital room. “What do you mean, Byron?” Peter heard himself say. He had a strange familiarity with the words issuing from the mouth he assumed was his. “The doctors said I was terminal. That’s why I’m in here, isn’t it?”
                  “I meant exactly what I said.”
                  “Bu-”
                  “Listen to me.”
                  Peter’s mouth closed abruptly.
                  “All the time you’ve spent in here, all the money you’ve paid, or not paid, since I assume they wouldn’t throw you out.” At this, Peter gave Bryon one of the most unconvinced looks he could manage, forcing a grin onto Bryon’s face. “That they haven’t bothered to even tell you what you are dying of?”
                  This question struck Peter as obvious once it was voiced, though he had never thought to ask it. “Well what do I have then?” asked Peter, looking as dumbfounded as he felt. “And are you sure it isn’t terminal?”
                  “To be honest, we’re not completely sure it isn’t terminal. But one thing I am sure of; you don’t have to suffer like this. And you don’t have to die, at least not here. Not now.”
                  But this last piece of news fell on the deaf ears of Peter’s body, which had fallen into sobbing at the thought of dying from this horrible disease. On the contrary, Peter, or, whomever he was right now, heard perfectly well.
                  “I believe we have some things to talk about if you’ll come with me,” said Byron to the sobbing wreck of a man. They walked slowly from the room.
                  Peter woke from his trance with a start. Looking about, panicked over his hallucination, he thrashed about. The man held him still, to keep the IV which hadn’t been there several minutes before from falling out of his arm.
                  “DAMMIT, STOP BYRON!” Peter shouted.
                   Byron smiled. He slowly took a card out of his pocket, and handed it to Peter. “My name is Byron Hoppman. I believe we have a few things to talk about.”

Chapter 2- Christine

                  Leaving the hospital had happened more quickly and unexpectedly than entering it. Byron waved away the nurse proffering a wheel chair, and set a quick pace with Peter towards the exit. When they reached the parking lot, they began walking towards the most crowded section. All the while, not a word was said. Byron stopped as they reached a black SUV without a license plate; he opened the passenger side and waited for Peter to enter.
                  “Who are you?” Peter demanded. “I’m not getting in that car until,”
                  “You’ll get in that car if I say you will.”
                  “Make me.”
                  “You don’t want that, believe me.”
                  “How do I know you aren’t some sort of kidnapper, or something,” Peter said shakily, his confidence wavering visibly.
                  Byron smiled. He didn’t seem fazed in the least by this exchange, which all combined to unnerve Peter even more. He braced himself for an unsatisfactory answer, or one just downright scary; he prepared to run. Could it be that someone so calm as to walk uninvited into a hospital and promptly remove a terminal patient from the care of the hospital would work for someone legitimately employed? Byron’s confidence seemed more characteristic of a mob hit-man than any other profession Peter could think of.
                  “I work for the CIA,” Byron said, the amused smile gone from his visage. “Now shut up and get in the car.”

                  With her finger tapping a monotonous beat on the desk as if waiting for other instruments to join in and create a melody, Eileen Jorgens watched the pair enter. “Name?” she asked, the answer of “Peter McCowley” already in her mind even as he said it. “Have you briefed him yet, Byron?’
                  “I thought I’d give you the honors of briefing the new one.”
                  “The little we have to brief him on, you mean. Should’ve been able to figure it out on his own; though by the look of him I might just need to tell him which foot to put in each shoe.”
                  Turning towards Peter’s clenched face, she began to explain, “We are not completely sure what’s happening to you just yet. We don’t even know what to call it. But we do know that it is lethal, and that it has the effect of giving strange visions. It seems these visions are of the near future around the one who is having them.”
                  He opened his mouth to interrupt, but before voice came out Byron placed a firm hand on his shoulder to preempt him. Eileen and Byron seemed quite used to plowing through these interviews in a matter of minutes.
                  Eileen leafed through the folders, quickly, but Peter still managed to catch a glimpse. Inked in carefully on the manila folders were not names, but numbers. 629, 630, 631, 632, 633, 634.... Eileen paused at this point, staring at the large bold number with hollow eyes. “You’re number six-thirty-four, I believe,” she said. “So you might hear that occasionally.
                  That look. Peter knew something was wrong. Flipping through the numbers, no names, a lethal disease. It can’t just be that this thing is dangerous. That type of risk doesn’t empty a person’s eyes of feeling like that, Peter thought. Not unless you already know how it’s going to end, before you even start. Peter knew. The survival rate was zero.
                  She began to explain the nature of the disease, but they had already told him everything in the hours spent studying his central nervous system, the pages and pages of results from MRIs, and the extensive genetic analysis. All had shown the same as every single other victim brought before this motley pair. Nothing had pointed to a common cause of the constant convulsions. Nothing. Once again, the room grayed.

                  Peter saw himself writhing, flopping his limbs wildly like a fish out of water stranded in the middle of the floor. Eileen was trying to hold him still, and Byron running out the door, presumably for help. Once he stopped struggling and lay still, Eileen got up and looked at the corner of the room. “I don’t know where you are, Peter, but I know you can hear me. Let’s continue your briefing,” she said as Peter jumped at hearing his name. Contrary to hitting his head on the ceiling, he got a dusty view of a pipe between the ceiling and the floor. Though his head was stuck halfway through the ceiling despite his flailing arms trying to push him back down, he could still hear Eileen clearly as she continued, “While we have tried to control and induce these convulsions which cause the visions in the later stages of the disease, as of yet, we’ve only succeeding in decreasing the lifespan of the subject. But despite these setbacks, this disease grants you tremendous potential. It is a shame that you are going to die, yes. But before that can happen, we want to use you in a government program for developing these... talents... that you’ve been given for the remainder of your life. Do you love your country, Peter? Would you give up a few pain-filled years if it could mean a chance you could serve the nation in the greatest way imaginable? Not that your patriotism matters much, unless you have the means to pay for your time in that wretched hospital you’ve been staying at. Otherwise you’ll be a corpse on the side of the road in twenty four hours.”

To Be Continued...

Rebound Part III


by Anna Hardcastle

Chapter 3
When Alegra got home, she was floating on cloud nine. She had spent an hour with Spencer just walking around the park, talking about everything from books to movies to favorite places, (Alegra’s being London, Spencer’s being Manhattan). Alegra felt a strong attraction to Spencer; on more than just a physical level; they could really talk and connect. He was fun, spontaneous, exciting, smart and extremely gorgeous. They had made plans to hang out on Friday after school, to welcome in the weekend. Alegra couldn’t wait to see him again, even if it was just as a friend.
            Just as she was changing before dinner, her phone rang.
            Alegra prolonged picking up for twenty seconds but when the phone continued to ring, she answered it.
            “Hello?”
“Hey, it’s me. What’s up?” she heard Jon’s voice on the other end.
“Oh, hi…” Alegra said unenthusiastically.
“Were you expecting it to be someone else?” Jon asked, teasing her.
“Uh, no I was just busy when you rang. What’s up?” Alegra wanted to get the conversation out of the way.
Just as Jon was reliving practically every instance that had occurred during his day, Alegra realized that the situation wasn’t fair to her, Jon or Spencer. She knew that if she stayed with Jon, then she would end up cheating on him and would hate herself for it.  Alegra wasn’t happy with Jon and the sooner she told him, the better off they’d all be.
“Jon, I have to talk to you,” Alegra cut him off, before she had time to change her mind. “Um, well, we’re talking right now…” Jon said, confused.
“No, I mean I have to talk to you in person. Tomorrow. There’s something that I need to tell you,” Alegra said slowly, careful with her choice of words.
“Are you breaking up with me or something?” Jon sounded worried.
“Look, just wait until tomorrow and I’ll explain everything, alright?”
Alegra knew that breaking up with someone over the phone was not a good move.
“No, I want to know now,” Jon said, a finality in his voice that Alegra couldn’t let down.
“Fine,” Alegra sighed. “Can we meet up?”
Jon quickly agreed to meet Alegra in the lobby of her building and hung up.
“Miss Alegra,” Beatrice, the family’s maid called from the kitchen. “Supper is ready.”
“Um, I’ll eat a little later,” Alegra shouted back.
Alegra was nervous. She hadn’t realized that this moment would come so soon.
She barely had time to decide what she was going to say when Jon texted her to announce his arrival.
Alegra hurried downstairs so that Jon wouldn’t have a chance to come up; having him in her apartment would make everything even more complicated and weird.
At the slap of Alegra’s Miu Miu sandals on the marble floor of the lobby, Jon turned around, revealing his concerned face. He looked as if he was about to come over to hug Alegra but appeared to think better of it, noticing her uncomfortable, nervous frown.
“What’s wrong?” Jon asked worriedly.
“Look,” Alegra started. “I don’t really know how to say this, but… I’ve been thinking lately that maybe we should just be friends.”
Alegra hadn’t realized how clichĂ© that would sound. It was the oldest line in the book.
Jon didn’t say anything for what felt like five minutes. Alegra glanced up from her shoes once or twice to make sure that he wasn’t crying, but as soon as she saw that he was staring straight at her, his expression unreadable, she returned to examining her turquoise sandals.
When Alegra decided that she could no longer take the prolonged silence, she opened her mouth to speak.
“Please say something.”
“Why?” Jon asked.
“Uh,” Alegra was confused. “Because the silence is awkward…”
“No,” Jon cut her off impatiently. “I mean why did you suddenly decide that you want to dump me? Did I do something?”
Alegra had dreaded this question. The truth was that her reasons were not nice or even acceptable and she didn’t want to have to reveal them to Jon.
“I dunno, it just isn’t working anymore,” Alegra hoped Jon wouldn’t expand upon his question.
“Yes it is,” Jon advocated, grabbing Alegra’s hands and looking down at her.
Alegra yanked her hands away and looked to the side.
“Please don’t make this harder than it has to be,” she said, focusing on the front desk situated at the far end of the lobby.
Jon was looking really hurt now; Alegra was worried that he actually might cry. She definitely wasn’t equipped to handle that.
“Are you going to change your mind?” Jon pressed.
“I don’t know, Jon.” After yet another uncomfortable few seconds of silence, Alegra said, “Please don’t hate me for this, it’s just not working for me anymore.”
Jon scoffed. His eyes were dark blue slits and his fists were clenched. Although he wasn’t very strong, Alegra was scared that he might hit her. But instead, he yelled. His voice resounded off of the spotless, sparkling marble of the floor and walls in the lobby causing Buster, the doorman, and Gucci-clad Mrs. Second Floor to stare in alarm.
“It’s been five months and now it’s not working?! Did this relationship mean anything to you? You’re so caught up on that dead Dylan guy that you can’t focus on the here and now!”
He continued for at least two minutes, but Alegra couldn’t concentrate on the rest. The only thing that had registered in her mind was the fact that Jon had not only just called Dylan, the love of her life, “that dead guy,” but was also actually blaming the end of their relationship on him. She knew that before he had died, Dylan had never been friends with Jon, who had actually hated Dylan, but Alegra never knew what had really happened between them.
Jon stopped shouting, bringing Alegra back to reality.
“Whatever,” Jon said, and walked through the glass door, not waiting for Buster to open it for him.
Alegra didn’t go after him. She was surprised that he had just walked away like that. It was the most tense conversation that she had ever had in her life. The last thing she had expected was for Dylan’s name to be brought up. From the time that she had started dating Jon in January, Dylan was never once mentioned, he even felt taboo and off-limits. This must have been how Jon had felt the entire time.
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            After slowly walking back to her apartment and flopping down on her queen sized bed, the only person that Alegra could think to call was Jackson. She knew that Jules was at a press conference for the opening of her dad’s new management firm and she didn’t feel comfortable talking to her maid, although she had practically raised her, about the situation.
            Jackson picked up halfway through the first ring.
“Hey Ali,” Jackson said brightly. He was the only person aside from her sister who ever called Alegra that.
Just hearing his voice made Alegra smile slightly.
            She began to tell him what had happened with Jon; how he had brought up Dylan and what he had called him. Once she started, she couldn’t stop and the tears began to pour down her perfectly made-up face.
            “Hang on,” Jackson said slowly. “He blamed your breaking up with him on Dylan? Wow, what an insensitive asshole.”
            “I know!” Alegra agreed. “I can’t believe he chose now to bring him up! This must have been how he had always been feeling. I should hire some bouncers to go over and knock his brains out.”
            “Ali, come on, calm down,” Jackson soothed his best friend. “You seem really mad now, just go to sleep and hopefully in the morning, you’ll be okay. But you know that they had some beef a couple of years ago, right?”
            “What do you mean?” Alegra asked, confused.
            “People were saying that Dylan and his crew were bullying Jon or something; he’s always had a thing against Dylan.”
            “Really?” Alegra was surprised. “I mean, I always knew that Jon wasn’t too fond of Dylan but I never knew that anything had actually happened.”
            “Yeah, whatever, I mean it’s probably just a dumb rumor,” Jackson tried to assure her.
            “I hope so. I’m so sick of-” Alegra was cut off by a beeping noise on the other end.
            “Oh, it’s Jules,” Jackson said. “Anyway, what were you saying?”
            “Don’t worry about it,” Alegra answered. “Talk to Jules, I’ll be fine.”
            “Are you sure?” Jackson said, unconvinced.
            “Yeah, thanks.”
            “Okay, feel better,” he said before hanging up, no doubt to talk to Jules about their getting back together, yet again.
            As Alegra got into bed ten minutes later, she couldn’t help but think about what Jackson had said about Dylan. Alegra never would have thought that the boy who she had loved so much and who had been so good and kind to her could ever do something to hurt anyone else. But  she couldn’t deny that she had heard the cruel rumors about Dylan and his friends; she had just chosen to ignore them because she never wanted to believe that Dylan would ever bully the ‘losers’ or give someone a swirly.
            But of course the hot, popular guy had to be the bully as well; it was a basic rule of the universe.

To Be Continued...

Modern Traditions


by Carolina Aziz

Most Friday nights, I go to my grandmother’s house. The house usually smells like rice and freshly baked challah. Routinely, my grandmother prepares my family and I an appetizing meal. This week, my younger cousin started singing a Persian song she had overheard my grandmother singing. “Mard bayad pool dar bashe, Mard Bayad pool dar bashe, kachal ooh kamee chagh…” A man has to be wealthy, a man has to be wealthy, bald and a little chubby. “Zan bayad choshkel bashe Zan Bayad choshkel bashe sefeed ohh lahghar” A women has to be beautiful, a woman has to be beautiful, pale and thin. It is a satirical song mocking the classic traditional Persian couple. Even though I understand that my grandmother did not intend to undermine a woman’s role in society, the song troubled me.
            The stereotypical couple has evolved since my grandmother’s time. Now the ideal couple is a very young, thin, beautiful woman that can cook, clean and raise a family; and a tall, dark, handsome man with a profession. Is that how I saw my future and my marriage? Was education not in the picture? Although there are many pressures from my community to be the “perfect wife to be,” that was not what I wanted. The song reflected the common couple in Iran during my grandparent’s generation. My grandmother never had the option of pursuing a career and going to a university. The demands for a woman were to work and make some money and spend the remainder of her time learning how to cook and clean so she could eventually run a household. There is a disconnect in the mindset in Iran in the 1950's and the mindset in America in the 2010's. My grandmother and mother, both born and partially educated in Iran, have been raised under the notion that only men could pave the way for advancement. Being raised in America and going through the American schooling system, I am reminded of prominent women who have positively contributed to the English, mathematical and scientific developments of America and the world. Marie Curie, Margaret Fuller and Amelia Earhart are among the many influential and significant women that represent female potential.
Although I admire and understand the mindset of my mother and grandmother, I agree with the American mentality. I want to develop the traditional skills my mother and grandmother focused their time on learning, like cooking and cleaning. However, I also want to continue learning, pursuing a career and eventually contributing to the world and our future. I recognize that I have to responsibilities as a woman. My first role as a woman is to start a family that I can nurture, nourish, and guide. My second role is on a larger platform to educate myself, advocate for what I believe in and contribute to advancement and improvement.
As the pressure started overloading, I had thoughts of taking another route and not educating myself, but this song served as a reminder to me that women have as much potential as men and should utilize that potential for the greater good of the world. 

Each Other

by Mark Steiner

They sit on the starlit hilltops,
And in the cozy log cabins
They lay in the homely motel rooms
And the warm twilit fields

They are the star-crossed lovers
And the warm summer couples.

They lead simple lives,
Walking their roads together.

They have none but each other,
And with that they are content.



The Vigor of Words




The Vigor of Words
by Arianna Zarka

They tumble off your gentle lips,
Travel deep into my heart.
They are like songs playing in my head,
Over, and over, and over again.
They look so lovely and radiant,
Yet gently kill.
They travel through my ears,
Into the depths of the sea.
They drift through the ocean,
Slowly swaying with waves,
Melting like butter in the sun.
They are submerging into me,
Looking lustrous and glorious,
A burden of affliction on my back.
The ocean becomes tumultuous,
And the waves weave through each other.
They are trying to eliminate
The insinuating pleasant words,
From the quiet and peaceful sea.
There is thunder and lightening,
The fish are paralyzed with fear.
The ocean is now angry and uneasy.
The waves keep pushing and pushing,
But it’s too late.
The words have already sunk to the bottom.